Disappointed

Have you ever been to a preschool or any child's activity? If yes, then you might have noticed most of the kids are really excited but there's always 1 or 2 whose bawling, doesn't want to join or just hide?! Well...if you see a kid like that, that's probably mine. They had to dance today in front of a crowd as opening number to their Intramurals. There was weeks of practice, money and effort was spent for his costume, and we had to wake up early for the 1-hr drive (not to mention super traffic) to their Talamban Campus.

What do we get?

Nothing.

He cried and cried and refused to join.
I was disappointed. I am disappointed at Ozzy. I am disappointed at myself.
Am I a bad parent for feeling this?
I guess, in a way I feel bad because I didn't do better to convince him to join.
I should have been firm. I should have been this, been that.
No point in shoulda woulda coulda now.

I feel angry at myself for not hearing him out when he kept on saying no.
I didn't really listen as to why he didn't like to dance.
I knew he had apprehensions.
One major thing was, it wasn't in his comfort zone.
He kept on saying he will dance only in their classroom not there where everyone was looking.

Ozzy has always been a bit insecure and shy.
This has been a struggle for me from Day1.
When he was a baby, not everyone can carry him. If he doesn't know you, he will never talk to you or let you carry (let alone touch) him.
Now that he's older, he's beginning to warm up but not as much as the other kids his age where playing with other kids isn't a problem.
I was excited to learn he's making friends in school.

Now...Intrams 2010. He's been with MMIS for about 3 months now.
He knows his school very much.
He loves his classmates and his teachers.
Their first major activity in school...and FAIL.
I wanted to tell him to "suck it up"
People do things they don't want to all the time but they do it anyway.

Root Canal.
Filing of Taxes.
Wearing Seat belt.
Eating Vegetables.

At that moment, I wanted him to stop being a baby.
I guess I was really getting frustrated.
The dance started without him. It ended without him.
He looked up at me with eyes saying sorry.
But I wasn't in the mood for that.
The drive home was quiet.

...I guess, this was a big step for him.
Dancing in front of a crowd of strangers is a terrifying thing.
It was such a huge step that he wasn't ready for.
I just have to accept that and try to look for ways to overcome his timidness.
I can maybe enroll him in some sports activities or what not.
Maybe then he will open up and become more brave to face a crowd.

In With The New

My morning ritual usually includes listening to the morning show, Good Times With Mo. My Omnia2 has a radio feature so I just listen using that. I love my phone, but there are scratches here and there and to top it off - it doesn't stream video's from sites like youtube. Tsk!

...anyway, I was thinking of (asking hubby) to buy an iphone for me. Plus, I can finally download that game Plants Vs. Zombies everyone is raving about. If Hubby won't buy me one (hmp!) I guess I could push through with my garage sale plan. I can sell my old clothes, bags and accessories. I can even sell my old gadgets that is unused like my mp3 (how much are the going rate for MP3 players right now?), ipod and old camera. Maybe, just maybe, I can make enough to buy me a new gadget.

Out with the old, in with the new!

Petrang Kabayo

A remake of our Pinoy fave movie once starred by Roderick Paulate and now by Vice Ganda! Just though to share it here because its funny!

10 down 239 to go.

..work has piled up.

Tasks must be finished.

End-of-month reports should be submitted.

BUT here I am trying to bloghop. Read 10, only 239 posts from my friends to go.^-^ I can do this!

Spare Me Some

Too much have been said about gold and gold bullion online, in my friends blogs and in many other websites that I am convinced that it is going to be a good investment - if any. With the kids growing up, expenses tend to pile up. Basic needs, utilities, school fees, medical fees and insurance eat most of our budget up. Not to mention the many wants ^-^. From bags to jewelry!!! Gosh,its hard to resist especially with online shopping which makes it very easy to do. While it may be difficult to spare a few bucks to invest on gold or silver, I think it is best I do. One day, when I am old and gray my kids will thank me for it.

Turning 1.

...in about 2 weeks, my little baby will turn 1.

Boy, time flies fast when life is full of love and laughter. While I don't plan on throwing a full-on kiddie party with clowns and such - we will quietly celebrate his 1st birthday with close family and friends since his actual birthday falls on a Thursday.

On the weekend after that, we will have dinner @ Bigby's Cafe. I will order a fab cake again from LMG Pastry (same maker of Ozzy's famous Dino Cupcake Cake). I was thinking : Rockstar Theme for my little peanut!^-^

Here are some ideas I've come across with online.

-Ber Months Is Here!

I am excited for September.

• -ber months. I am months closer to seeing Hubby again ^-^
• My baby Jacob will be turning 1 - no longer a baby =(( but I am anxious for more milestones for him.
• my parent's celebrating their 30th wedding anniversary this month.
• countless birthdays, my sister, grandma, aunts and cousins; more birthdays + more parties + more food = happy me.
  

Let the ber months come!

Coffee & Cigs

Hubby smokes. He says he only does it socially (which is untrue!!!). Also, every after lunch/dinner he says he needs to smoke to get rid of the uncomfortable feeling. I've read about Swisher Sweets Cigars online and it is said to be small cigars made by Bering. The great thing about this one is that it has a secret blend of quality tobaccos and special flavorings which Bering a very mild, sweet tasting, satisfying smoke. According to the website, this kind of cigar is perfect for those people who want a delicious quick smoke on their lunch or coffee break.

This is a great gift idea to Hubby indeed. His birthday is coming up and every year I get stressed thinking of what to give him. This year, I know exactly what to give.^-^

Water, Water!

My skin, as well as the kids' skin is very sensitive. I've got that from my mom whom she got from her own mother. Aside from being very dry, we easily get rashes and age spots! So, anyway, since our skin is dry, I make sure to moisturize the kids' skin as often as I can. Every after shower, I always rub lotion (even though both boys hate it!). I know they will appreciate my efforts when their bigger. Still, the baby developed dry patches on his back no matter how much I tried to moisturize and even buy him expensive baby washes. I guess it boils down to the water. The water from the tap is hard water, full of chemicals to kill the bacteria. So, every time I wash the kids, their skin gets striped of its moisture due to the harsh water. That's why we really looked for a trusted water filter supplier and asked for a quotation on a whole house filter system. Sure, it would mean extra monthly expenses but if you really think about it, its a great investment.

Manic Monday #220

What are the values you cherish even though they may run counter to societal values?

Loyalty. These days we hear so much about infidelity, by men, even women in marriage. When I see my own parents, my in-laws, even my grandpa and grandma sticking to each other, being true to their vows, it makes me want to be like that.

Mondays make me___________.

...want to crawl in bed and wish it was still the weekend.

If you were to publish a book about yourself, what would you title it?

How To Live A Happy, Satisfying & Balanced Life.