I feel horrible.
In my frustration, I did not hesitate to give Joshua to his yaya despite his cries for mommy. I had been trying to put him to sleep for an hour already. His yaya is still new and so I put Joshua to sleep in the afternoons until such time he is comfy with his Yaya Lea.
We danced. I sang. He nursed. An hour passed & he was still struggling to keep his eyes open. I knew he was sleepy; his eyes were red. But he won’t sleep! Why?
I was tired and I had been MIA from my desk for an hour already. I had a few things to finish and I was frustrated.
Frustrated for not being able to put him to sleep & frustrated because he just won’t sleep!
I threatened to give him to his yaya if he won’t sleep, so he closed his eyes only to open it a few seconds later. He was laughing now. Giggling a bit. Calling out for his yaya. So..I gave him to his yaya.
“Good I can go back to work now.” I thought to myself.
But, as I did so, he cried. So naturally I gave in and tried to put him to sleep yet again. This time was no different, as soon as his yaya would leave the room he would again call out to her. I can’t believe it, the boy is testing me.
I was angry now. (and did I mention tired?)
His yaya came back in and so I left. I heard him shout and cry but I did not turn back. I continued walking. At that point I really gave up.
It felt horrible.
When I checked up on him 45 minutes later…he was asleep. The cook put him to sleep.
“Tulog man diay, daghan pa gyud drama.” I guess he was super tired from all the crying that he also gave up ~ and slept!
Haii…motherhood has its downside moments.
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This reminds me of when my baby sister was still younger. Actually she's going through that whole phase of crying alot again. :P I know it gets frustrating... and man, being a mommy IS tough. I wouldn't know personally, but seeing my mom do all the work makes me realize how tough it really is. o_0
i think he is too old to nurse van...
don't you think so?!!
hihih!
Gusto nya kay mommy...
ganyan talaga maging mommy. kaya mo yan!
masasanay ka din. ganyan din ako kay manu. pag ayaw matulog, sa yaya bigay. downside is, he looks for his yaya everytime he's sleepy
really kel? downside ba un? ahahaha i see that as a priviledge. ahahaha
kidding aside, there are times lang kase i want to rest..ahaha
mommy day-off kaya? hihihi
Hay sis! pareho tyo kc ganyan din c Aj pag minsan. Ganyan cguro pag ganyan age nila, db almost same age lang c Aj & Ozzy?
Hirap tlga nya, we just feel guilty afterwards pero minsan kasi kailangan un :(
luckily i still havent encountered such situation with anevay. it seems hard pero dapat you have to be firm. kasi minsan pag nakita nila that by crying nakukuha nila gusto nila ginagamit nilang weapon ung iyak para sumunod ka sa kanila.
I had these downside moments back in Bahrain. Yung tipong isang oras na lang at babangon na sana dapat ako getting ready for work, but the truth was I haven't slept yet becoz she wouldn't let me. Ang masaklap may eksena pang "kayi". I can't ask my husband na sya magbantay kasi mas pagod sya sa akin dahil split shift ang duty nya.
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